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[fogsong]

You two were fighting, then? [ She can always just ask Cloud. It's not like he'd lie about it. ]

Okay. It's not like it's easy to face someone who has hurt you even if it's not really them.

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I don't make it a habit of lying. Point being, it isn't as if I've done nothing untoward and am a sweet and innocent pure soul. I've killed hundreds. Those graves, in that other place? Those people?

They were a nation once.

It doesn't matter. The next time it won't be an illusion, and I know what I have to do.

[fogsong]

[ UNTOWARD!? God, this kid comes off so so old sometimes. ] Big whoop, don't care. I've killed hundreds, too. I just wanted to know if you were actively pushing Cloud or if he'd just been so triggered he snapped, that's all. I was curious.

How do you expect to face him if you can't even face the 'illusion'?

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That was addressing the 'somehow you think I don't deserve it' problem. I pushed him. Didn't you read what I wrote? I could have gutted him if I wanted to and chose to hurt him badly instead so it would last longer.

[Which.. is true, but also not quite the way he's making it sound. Cloud was absolutely provoked, and he didn't want the blond man to have to deal with any OTHER trouble on account of him.

That it was in the end a misunderstanding and a serious chain of misfortunate events didn't matter. He could handle the backlash of being assumed malevolent, Cloud didn't deserve any such label. He'd been through so much already.

Sephiroth doesn't lie most of the time, but it's so easy to leave out the things that might mitigate it and keep blame where it belongs.]

If all goes well, from ambush! :) I don't have to obey orders that don't have time to be spoken!

[fogsong]

I WAS MAKING SURE! [ You know... because she had attacked him unprovoked. Listen, sometimes a girl has to double check shit. ] Also, wow, asshole.

Ambush. I mean, it could work. [ But if he failed... Fuck. ] Or you could find a way over whatever bullshit programming he's beaten into you. It's not like you don't know someone who can pull a version of him out of you to practice on.

If you'd be interested.

[miniroth]

[It's better if people remain wary and suspicious of him. If Thirteen sent him back home and he failed in his goals of offing Hojo and Jenova, and then he was returned to Folkmore, the monster no longer buried..]

If it makes you feel better, he won. Again. I'm pretty sure I know why I keep losing in the future now.

I can't say I'm eager to submit myself to that again, but the offer is ... I'm not sure if 'kind' is the right word given the context. It may not choose to show me him again regardless.

Besides which, it feels as if I am trading one weakness for another.

[fogsong]

You died, so, yeah. Is it because he's angrier than you? [ Rage and hatred are some of the most powerful emotions in Sharon's incredibly biased opinion. ]

I'd think breaking his hold on you would be worth a little fear. You get used to it after a while.

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No. I wasn't taking it as seriously as I should have been. And if all I do is grow in power, it won't matter at all if I keep making that mistake. I'm unsure if it's one I should try to overcome, given how things normally turn out. Being stoppable is a good thing.

"A little fear." Hm.

[fogsong]

Only if you're banking on eventually losing your mind.

All right, fine, a lot of fear. You seemed to handle yourself just fine. None of the other monsters even seemed to phase you.

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I have found it best to plan for the worst and hope for the best. Everything I hope to accomplish can be pretty firmly and immediately ended if my alien mother is stronger than I am.

After a lifetime of having such reactions trained out of me I should hope you weren't able to tell that none of it was just fine.

Even the dogs. Casimir has burns like they did. I think about it a lot.

[fogsong]

That... makes sense. [ The plan for the worst, hope for the best. She has some trouble comprehending the alien mother bit. Her knowledge of Jenova is jumbled (and well over a year old now). ]

Oh. [ Yeah, no, she definitely deserves to feel like a piece of shit. ]

[miniroth]

It should have been fine though. None of that should be able to touch me. What was the point of fifteen years of instruction if I bleed so easily?

[fogsong]

I just poked at wounds already open. Pretty sure it was those fifteen years that made them, too.

[miniroth]

I don't know about that. But it did if nothing else show me where weaknesses lay; I can't have my actions hindered by things like guilt or regret.

I suppose in which case I should be thanking you for making it so clear.

[fogsong]

I think obedience is what you've got to worry about hindering you.

& don't you dare thank me unless you're interested in making me feel worse. [ But if that's his goal? Fire away, kid! ]

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Do you feel bad?

[fogsong]

Yes. [ albeit a complicated yes ]

[miniroth]

It's safer for you if you do not.

[fogsong]

[ she just rolled her eyes so hard. this kid. ] And why is that?

[miniroth]

Now when faced with an adult Sephiroth, myself or another, you will hesitate. You know you will. Doubt is there, now.

[fogsong]

Yeah, and it'll be okay. If you, or some other version of you, end up posing a threat, I promise I can handle it.

And, if not, I die. Big whoop. I'll come back.

[miniroth]

I am skeptical. Others have made similar claims and when it came down to the metaphorical finish line they faltered.

Time will tell.

[fogsong]

Yeah, yeah, it probably will.